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Wow, i was blocked out of my blog for a while there….finally i got technical assistance and I’m back online!! I am going to give myself a gift for my birthday this year…I am going to release my album 3 years in the making!!! Most definitely sign up on my email list NOW so you get the notice when I send it out in a few weeks! I will also be giving offers for free downloads and posting more tracks that you can buy individually on MySpace, so even if you cna’t buy the whole album, sign up on the list anyway to get music!

I am so blessed and ridiculously excited to share this with all of you!!

stay tuned- HERE COMES THE BIG ONE!

WOW. It seems a bit silly, but this is really exciting. i mean, iknow if i was tecchie person this would have been done, like YEARS ago but alas, us artistic types have hard enough time paying the bills on time and feeding themselves.

thanks for coming to my site, please come back!! the album “thank.full” will be up for listening and purchase by april and “ripe” is soon to follow. 19 never before finished songs in all!! this is my dream come true!!! all i’ve ever wanted is to inspire others with this god-given gift. please let me know what you think.
i would like to acknowledge that this NEVER would have happened without the extreme help and dedication of my father, Robert Allen, my best friend and kick-ass web designer, Mystique Star, my trusty producer Stefan Broadley, Melvin “spoon” Brannan, Jonathan Wold, and Casey James.

Thank you my all-star team!! Now i can share my ramblings with the world instead of just on my tribe profile.

a few things you should be ready for: the total and utter truth…and lack of editing. i cant be bothered with capital letters and apostrophes in every dont and cant. too much too say. my expression is more important to me than perfectionism. and i just gotta rebel against something…no matter how small.

i used to be a really bad perfectionist. i mean, the worst. so bad that i wouldnt even allow myself to write my own music, for fear it would never stand up to what i heard in my head. then when i finally wrote it, i could hardly let myself share it. then when i’d share it i wouldnt perform it until it was totally perfect. all this added up to a lot of restriction and self-judgement. its amazing the limits we put upon ourselves when we would never dream of doing that to others. i honestly believed i needed to be this perfect person, with a perfect voice, a perfect body, with lived in perfect embodiment of the message of my music. like somehow, if wasnt this tower of strength, i could never make it. pretty silly. its amazing how hard artists can be on themselves….

so much has changed…

in the last couple years writing and recording as a solo artist, i have realized something. perfection is boring. nobody likes it. it is downright annoying. the best artists are the ones who show their darkest and real-est parts to the world. i realized my greatest asset is being naked about my process. so i’ve been practicing this among my best friends on tribe all year, writing blogs and poems and posting them. the feedback i’ve been getting is awesome, especially when im feeling really challenged. its amazing how when we share ourselves, without editing, that we often say the exact thing someone else needs to hear. i encourage all of you to practice this. when someone says, “how are you?” instead of going  “fine,” try telling the utter truth. its amazing the conversations you will have if you really do this. we find the things we are all so afraid of are so common. when we seperate everything from each other we cut off the possibility of helping and healing each other.

so theres my soap box rant for the day. trust me, there will be more. i’m gonna post at least once a week, and it might not be pretty. it might not be related to music. but it will be me….unaplogetically, irreverently, passionately me.

thats just the way i be.

so much love,

amae